I posted my question on many websites but did not get any answer, i am going through anxiety and depression. My issue didnt bother me when i was young but now it makes me worthless. When i was in 8th grade i was sexually molested by my grandfather, i thought its cool. I used to massage his legs and thats how it started. I might have made the first move as i had no idea what i was doing. He is now long dead and i feel worthless and suicidal. Is there any dua. What should i do. Will i be forgiven??
الجواب وبالله التوفيق
Whatever mistake had been made, you should repent from Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta‘alafor that with sincerity. Allah Subhanahu Wa Ta‘alais the most merciful and forgiving and accepts are repentances. Committing suicide is haram therefore you should divert your mind from any such thoughts. Read the following in abundance:
لا حول ولا قوۃ الا باللہ۔
واللہ اعلم بالصواب